Rays of the Sun

it is so fucking hard, no one understands except for my mom and brother but he leaves me on tuesday for college, and it sucks because my best friend for the past 18 years is moving out. i’ve turned into the most bitter person the last month, everything inside me aches, my heart breaks every second of the day. nothing is the same anymore. the tumor in my dads brain is taking over his body, and it is hard to recognize who the main man in my life is anymore. nothing makes sense, and i can spend the whole day with people, and they wouldn’t even know. they say i’m strong, happy, care free, and love to laugh. little do they know how hard it is to come home knowing home will never be the same. my dad is deteriorating befre myeyes, and if any of you knew my family you would know how close th 4 of us are. there this is how i really feel…..